Wednesday, October 16, 2024

A random internal conversation

As I work through my thoughts on Day by Day discipleship, my mind keeps coming back to the questions I have previously raised about the interaction between a Christian's physical and spiritual natures. The question of the difference between growth and progress has also been added into the jumble of my thoughts.

I welcome any feedback you might wish to offer.


Starting question: Can we experience spiritual growth in the midst of continued sin?

What is an evidence of spiritual growth?

The Fruit of the Spirit

What are the Fruit of the Spirit?

The Fruit of the Spirit are love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

Can non-Christians display the Fruit of the Spirit?

Yes

Does this create a problem?

By not emphasizing the elimination of sinful things we (as brothers and sisters in Christ) cannot tell if someone is really changing.

Does God know they are changing (growing)?

Yes, but we don't. It makes it harder for us to know if they are doing the right things.

But are their lives showing Fruit?

Yes, but they are still doing bad things; they are living a sinful life.

Do you still do bad things?

Yes, but I can ask for forgiveness of my bad things

Does asking for forgiveness take away the consequences of doing the bad things?

No, but it helps to put me back in alignment with God.

So the attitude of remorse is as important of an evidence of spiritual growth as the displays of the Fruit of the Spirit?

No, but it is evidence that I take my sin seriously.

Do you take your sin move seriously than God?

No.

God took your sin seriously enough to allow himself to be killed for it. It has been taken care of forever. Does he want us to remain shackled to it when, in his eyes, it died with him on the cross?

No. But you're not growing if you keep doing the same bad things over and over.

Is that one of the Fruit of the Spirit? Sinning less? More consistent overcoming of temptation?

No, but self-control is a Fruit of the Spirit.

So God wants us to take more control of our lives. From whom are we taking control? From God? From ourselves?

From ourselves. From our sinful nature.

From our physical nature? That is temporary? That will be recreated to reflect the recreated spirit that was reborn when we answered call of the Spirit and our relationship with God was restored?

Our physical nature may be temporary but it still has an impact, an effect, on our spiritual nature.

In what way?

Ending question: Does our physical nature, and the things that are done to satisfy it, impact or effect our spiritual nature?

Additional questions raised in the midst of this inner conversation: If our physical nature impacts/effects our spiritual nature, in what ways is this impact/effect evidenced? Does the impact/effect stunt our spiritual growth? Will we continue to experience spiritual growth when we exist in the new heaven and new earth? If, after becoming a believer in Jesus we continue to sin too much, will we be in a remedial spiritual growth class in the new heaven and new earth? Will we experience less of God?

God, can you clue me in?

 Each morning I jot down the Verse of the Day (VotD) from both the BibleGateway app and the YouVersion app. Some days, the verses are remarkably similar in their message; other days, the verses are very different.

Today is the first day in the few months since I started trying to do this consistently that both apps have had the same verse.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." - Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)

Normally, in my sinful arrogance, I would quickly pass over this verse, as it is a verse that I consider to be cliched in our contemporary Christian world of "bumper sticker scripture" and "gossip as prayer request". Had only one of my Bible apps utilized this verse for its VotD, I would have written it in my journal and moved on quickly.

The double whammy of this verse in both apps caused me to stop, look beyond myself and really think about what God is saying to me this morning.

I have been having a rough couple of days as I process a conversation I had regarding the queer community and Christian faith and discipleship. I told Brenda yesterday that I feel like something has been opened in me for this community. My heart hurts for this group.

Books I am reading and the podcast to which I am listening come from people whom I believe are genuine in their love for God and understanding of Christian doctrine; yet, it is different from the doctrine with which I was raised and under which I currently sit as a member of my church.

My thoughts are a jumble as I try to think through this mess of emotion and belief. I feel hopeless and I think that's why I need to pay attention to the verse in Jeremiah, more today than before. 

What I am going through has not taken God by surprise. He has numbered my days and knows the work I will do. He knows my thoughts before they work their way through my mind and the words that I will write before I type them.

I feel the most appropriate response is for me to try to recommit myself to listening for his voice.